This has been a much needed “relaxing weekend” for me. And I’ve kept fairly busy for most of it (errands with friends, the gym, horn practice, cleaning, etc). But mostly there’s been this pervasive feeling of loneliness.

Or maybe it’s just a case of the “mean reds”.

Sometimes holiday weekends do that to me. Sometimes it’s just normal weekend where I don’t have a crazy schedule to keep my brain occupied.

Weekends like this tend to drive me to spend more time online than I should. Time online looking for… companionship.

Naturally this weekend has most folks out of town– up north or at IML or with family and friends. Which means my search for companionship left me rather… unfulfilled.

And that’s fine. It just would have been good ol’ empty, meaningless sex. But all it did was sort of highlight my romantic/personal/dating life. Or lack thereof. And just how alone I am.

I’m pretty good at ignoring my situation most of the time. Until weekends like this come along and sort of whack my nose with it.


About cb

Nickname: Munt Measurements: 45 B, 34, 38(?) Ambition: to be the best human ever! Turn ons: long walks on the beach, romantic dinners, porn, rainbows, cock Turn offs: bad smell face, men who are full of themselves, dead puppies, popcorn, sadness
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5 Responses to Lonesomeliness

  1. Girl Tuesday says:

    I feel you, cb. It will pass.
    Sometimes I just can’t believe you’re single. You’ve got looks, smarts, humor, a cute cat, a cool pad, dudes should be kicking your door down. I don’t get it….

  2. Chip says:

    I think many of us feel that from time-to-time. It does sound like you have a few ‘tight/close/trustworthy’ friends, which is certainly something to be valued. Hang in there.

  3. Rick says:

    Yeah those feelings can come over us in a flash and be overwhelming. I had those feelings as a young man too. I often think it’s the fate of being gay. But even if Rob Lowe were to move in with me tomorrow and stay till death parted us I’m sure that I’d still have moments of loneliness. So the good news is that those feelings will pass. Hope you’re feeling better.

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