This has been a much needed “relaxing weekend” for me. And I’ve kept fairly busy for most of it (errands with friends, the gym, horn practice, cleaning, etc). But mostly there’s been this pervasive feeling of loneliness.
Or maybe it’s just a case of the “mean reds”.
Sometimes holiday weekends do that to me. Sometimes it’s just normal weekend where I don’t have a crazy schedule to keep my brain occupied.
Weekends like this tend to drive me to spend more time online than I should. Time online looking for… companionship.
Naturally this weekend has most folks out of town– up north or at IML or with family and friends. Which means my search for companionship left me rather… unfulfilled.
And that’s fine. It just would have been good ol’ empty, meaningless sex. But all it did was sort of highlight my romantic/personal/dating life. Or lack thereof. And just how alone I am.
I’m pretty good at ignoring my situation most of the time. Until weekends like this come along and sort of whack my nose with it.