It’s been one week since my little Phoebe girl departed from my life, and I’m getting along ok. I’m just generally sad and rather lonesome. And my routines have all been thrown out of whack.
I’m not feeling the sharp pain of loss anymore (which makes me feel rather guilty). Instead I’m kind of floating along right now in a funk. With occasional bouts of extremely short temper.
Damnit, I really miss her.
I miss her voice. It’s just too damn quiet in my condo now.
I miss my TV cuddle-buddy and my door greeter.
But It’s roughest for me at bedtime, because every night she curled up in the crook of my left arm and purred while I read until I got drowsy.
Now I’m finding reasons to stay up so as to avoid going to bed. Dishes. Cleaning. Watching The news & Late night TV personalities. Just pacing around.
I’m also finding reasons to avoid being in my condo. Biking. Errands. Workouts. Chorus. Band. Even my shitty job.
I need the distractions so I don’t beat myself up for not doing more for her while she was alive. Maybe one more vet visit would have caught something. Anything.
I promise to stop posting about this; I know this isn’t what you want to read. But as this is my diary, I just need to write it out.
If you have pets, you be sure to give them extra love and hugs from me.
Mangina Monologues 
We are in kitten season. Maybe adopt a new friend?
I feel your loss and sympathise. Take the time you need to grieve, but when you are ready to have a new companion, don’t hesitate to bring her/him into your life. Phoebe will always have that special place in your memory, as the ray of sunshine that her name suggested. I also hope you have supportive friends with whom you can feel free to express your grief, because it is real. Hugs.
It’s your blog, you need to post about what is on your mind. It’s devastating to lose a pet. For what it’s worth, it sounds like you took terrific care of her.
{{{{{hugs}}}}} to you; I will pet my 3 girls for you.
Your blog is interesting because its about you; the good and the not so good. Many of us know the pain of losing a beloved pet, but many of us also know the joy of rescuing a new pet. Not a replacement but a new furry friend to love and be loved by. I look forward to photos of your new furry friend. 🙂