I actually can’t remember the last true nightmare I had– it’s been years. But I do have oddly disturbing dreams sometimes. I had one last night actually.
And there is a recurring theme.
These dreams all involve me being late for something and also usually missing something.
Last night I was to participate in a band concert. I was sitting with the group during our informal warm up. All I had was my mouthpiece and everyone else had their instruments. The director looked at me and I said, “I know. I’m just buzzing– but I’ll be on stage and ready in 10 minutes.”
The clock said I had 10 minutes. So I stood up and realized I was also missing my pants. So I grabbed a coat and wrapped it around myself and headed to the band dressing room area.
Only I couldn’t find it.
The concert was at a new school and I couldn’t remember where the dressing rooms were. So I started walking and searching. I even asked people where it was, and I kept getting different answers.
While wandering the hallways and back stage areas, i notices that each step I took became increasingly difficult. Like I was endlessly fatigued and was having to fight for every step. (This is a recurring theme too).
I eventually found the dressing room and got my pants, but now when I looked at the clock I was late.
So I headed back to the auditorium. Only when I got there, I couldn’t get back stage easily and there were multiple stairways and back hallways, etc. I had to ask a stage hand how to get back to where my instrument was.
Eventually I got to my horn case only to find it open and my instrument bent and damaged with water dripping on it from a ceiling leak. The horn was now unplayable….
That’s when I woke up.
And I’m exhausted this morning– really dragging ass and my eyes feel like two piss holes in a snowbank.
This is gonna be a long day.