Howard Semones lost his battle with cancer on Saturday evening. I take heart in the fact he was surrounded by his family and had his husband by his side.
It still sucks, though. And I'm very sad.
And it all feels so goddamn pointless and arbitrary.
Why, of all people, did he have to go? And so soon?
It's unfair and I'm so angry about it.
The funny thing is, we weren't even incredibly close. We'd never met in person, but we were still friends. And I genuinely liked him.
He was an easy guy to like.
We met through blogging and then migrated to twitter and Facebook friendship. We chatted off and on and occasionally played "Evil Apples" together.
He was funny. And animated. And nice. And had a great smile. And he was goofy.
And now he's gone.
In his final hours, my Facebook feed was absolutely full of people tagging him in photos they had taken with him. The number of posts was overwhelming; he had touched so many lives and had so many friends.
In that regard, I guess he was lucky. But we were even luckier.
Howard you were loved. I will miss you.
We all will.
Right now it doesn't feel very much like God left a window open somewhere.