Rejection

This was one of those weekends when the amount and type of physical rejection I received just seemed to be disproportionately large. And therefore a bit disheartening. 

I decided That I needed to get out and be social– so to that end I went to a bar for a “Bearracuda” event.  (Basically it’s a gay bear dance party).  The music was good (and too loud) and there were plenty o’ menz about. 

I actually had one rather handsome bearish guy flirt with me, which I rather enjoyed. He also danced with me and ground on me a bit (which I also liked).

What I didn’t enjoy was the fact that he proceeded to get more and more drunk– to the point of slurring and stumbling. He also would be dancing with me and then just leave. Disappear to “go find friends” or whatever. 

Yeah. I decided to chalk this up to “he’s just not that into you. And an alcoholic.”

I was also online a fair amount this weekend as I was feeling a bit lonesome. (Never a good idea). I was looking for some “company” and for all the wrong reasons. 

While I saw many fetching gentlemen online, 95% of the messages I sent out were met with stony silence. And the occasional response that I did get back was something like “Thanks.”

One word responses = meh, I’m not that into you but I’ll at least try to be polite.

When I’m online (scruff, Grindr, growlr, a4a, etc) I find that I always have to be the messager. I’m very VERY rarely the messagee. And I don’t get much of a response.  Mostly I’m ignored, sometimes I get a polite dismissal, and occasionally I’m solicited for money. 

And then there are the outright rude messages. 

On Saturday, I was actually messaged first by a guy on Grindr. Let me start by saying that he did not have a profile photo at all, and he was younger and African American. 

This is what he wrote:

Him:  damn, you are one ugly motherfucker

Me:  Ha. Well, I know this isn’t true, and you just proved to me that you are an ugly human on the inside. 

Him:  naw, you seriously ugly

Me:  at least I have a pic visible and I’m not hiding what I look like

Him:  you are too old to be on here, grandpa

Me:  and you’re too black to be on here

(Okay, I’m not proud of that comment , but I was going for brutal)

Him:  that’s not what yo momma said when I was choking her with it

Me:  a lowbrow mom joke?  Seriously?  Another failure from our educational system. Enjoy prostitution or minimum wage. 

And then he blocked me.

Naturally my rational mind knows his comments aren’t true and just mean-spirited. But when they come unsolicited, they tend to impact me differently. I mean, why?  What prompted this out of the blue comment?

And then when you add in the number of ignores or “sorry, I fell asleeps” or “thanks, but not interesteds”– it starts to take a self-esteem toll. 

Which isn’t helped much by all the people in relationships saying “oh, I’m sure you’ll meet someone.”  Or worse “Why are you single??”

The $64,000 question. If only I could answer….

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About cb

Nickname: Munt Measurements: 45 B, 34, 38(?) Ambition: to be the best human ever! Turn ons: long walks on the beach, romantic dinners, porn, rainbows, cock Turn offs: bad smell face, men who are full of themselves, dead puppies, popcorn, sadness
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10 Responses to Rejection

  1. Mark in DE says:

    Why would you even response to that “ugly” text?? You should have ignored AND blocked him. Sorry you were feeling lonely and got kicked while you were down. Better luck next weekend.

  2. sbuxfan33480 says:

    That guy was a totally asshole.. You are a very handsome man.. I used to always wonder if I was the only guy to get rejected on these app.. Sometime all you want is someone else to talk to.. Sorry about the lackluster weekend.. It’ll get better and you’ll be fighting them off with a bat.

  3. that rude asshole needs a hard kick to the taint with a steel-toed boot!

  4. Mark, née Fuzz says:

    Some people are just assholes, plain and simple. I’m with the other Mark. Why the hell did you let that shit stain goad you into an exchange? His assholeness only fed off of it.

  5. Gr8er says:

    Grindr does seem to be an app for a younger crowd – under 30 where scruff and such is more accepting to the elderly gay folk – still there was no reason for the punk to be so mean spirited

  6. Mark says:

    lets go out this weekend. Email me back and we will have a blast.

  7. TheRob says:

    Join Match.com or some other dating site. Trolling hookup apps is not exactly going to be sporting many keepers.

  8. rob says:

    Wow! What a jackhole! Glad you blocked him! That’s why I never enjoyed grindr–too many ‘low rent’ types! Hope you meet a real prince soon! Lot of Love from deep in the heart of Texas!

  9. Jon says:

    You can call me if you’d like to chat. My name is Jon.

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