As I have mentioned before, I am singing in a small ensemble from the gay chorus called OutLoud! It’s a twelve man ensemble that I auditioned for at the beginning of the year. It was supposed to be “the elite” from the choir and a real honor.
And while we did perform well as an ensemble and sound pretty darn good in the concerts, the season has been rather… challenging… To say the least.
Mostly the challenges were with the new assistant conductor who was the director/head of OutLoud! His musical selections for us to sing were not very hard and downright boring. Which, as a musician, makes it hard to stay excited and engaged in the music.
Plus his personality was a bit difficult to work with and it created some friction. I think his approach would be better suited to middle schoolers, rather than adults. (So you can just imagine the environment).
There have been some other challenges throughout the year, with choral management, rehearsal times, etc.
Anyway, the long and short of it is: OutLoud! had a meeting with the director of the full chorus where it was decided that after we complete our fundraising gig in two week’s time, OutLoud! will be done for the season.
I’m actually relieved.
Singing in the group made me a better performer as it made me face my fears about singing in a more exposed ensemble. But there was absolutely no joy for me. It was more a chore.
And when music becomes a chore, that’s when it’s time to cal it quits.
Which we did.
You know what the worst part is? The audition at the beginning of the year was for both OutLoud! and the chamber singers (a 24 man ensemble). And the chamber singers got to do some awesome music– the kind of stuff I love to sing.
I’m so jealous.