Okay. As many have already read, I was selected to sing a “solo” of sorts in our upcoming gay chorus Xmas concert. (It’s a duet and trio actually). Which I’m both excited and excited about.
But last weekend I also auditioned for a position in one of the two small ensembles that are available in the chorus: the Chamber Singers and OutLoud!
The chamber singers is like a 20-30 voice ensemble, and OutLoud! is a 12-member select group. It was one audition, and on my audition card I selected the Chamber Singers, but also mentioned I would consider OutLoud as well. Depending on if either group wanted me or where they thought I might “fit”.
I was offered an invitation to sing in OutLoud! and I accepted it.
I’m really nervous about this. OutLoud! performs at every concert and also has their own show in the spring. Or has had their own show.
But this is a transition year where the previous director of OutLoud! has stepped down and a new guy was hired. So there is a big X-factor with regard to expectations, repertoire, etc.
Not to mention that I’ve never sung in such a small ensemble before. Everything will be so exposed!
And speaking of “exposed”, this group has a bit more “outness” to it. There isn’t any hiding or the relative anonymity of being in a large ensemble. So I’ll definitely more front and gay center.
Am I ready for this? Did I make the correct decision?
This is like drum corps all over again. Whenever I commit to a musical ensemble, I seem to go all the way with it and end up with all sorts of extra responsibilities.
What have I done??? I’m freaking out a bit here.