So, I’ve still been texting and FaceTiming Erick quite a bit. Which is good and bad.
We fully acknowledge the difficulty of the situation and the myriad of challenges our connection presents. And the general fucked-uppedness of it all. We both know that there is no resolution in sight, and are trying to make the best of it.
But it may be verging on “too complicated”.
Poor Erick kind of started withdrawing and shutting down this past week. Too much going on with his family, job, life in SF, friends, Etc. And then when you toss a geographically undesirable guy into the mix….
Well– it “complicates” things.
I feel bad. The last thing I want to do is add to his frustration or stress. I know this situation isn’t easy, but it shouldn’t be upsetting. And it really bothers me that it might be.
Sometimes I kind of wish Erick would meet some great local guy who makes him happy so he would forget all about me. Yeah, it would suck and I would be a bit heartbroken, but Erick would be better off.
In the meantime, he’s trying to sort things out and I’m just avoiding while hoping that the universe makes all the decisions for us.
Facebook doesn’t appear make a status for this.