The Universe Giveth…

…but there’s always a catch.

So, I recently met this boy. A boy I ended up quite liking– almost instantly. Which is so not me. I’m usually all “meh, whatevs. I’ll guard my heart while I see where this goes.”

But this one was different.

Handsome. Ridiculously so. I mean, like, you are so not even in my league handsome. And tall. And built. And bearded. And tattooed. And smart. And employed. And plays volleyball. And likes sports. And a really good kisser. And SINGLE.

And the sex?

Really good. We’re talking 3-hours-and-multiple-times good.

And for some inexplicable reason, he seemed to find me attractive too. Enough that it gave me a brief moment of hope. Blinding hope.

I blame my lonely heart, really. It’s rare that I meet a boy I’m truly smitten with, especially so quickly. Because it happens so infrequently (even less so with every passing year) that when it does occur, I get stupid.

The “potential” sort of blinds me and my mind starts running forward with ideas of “I could bring this one home to meet the parents”. Or “I can see us together at cocktail parties, or in public, sharing a glance and I would know that for some reason this hot guy chose me.”

But there’s always a catch.

This boy comes with a drawback or two. Nothing quite deal-breaking, but nothing idyllic either. And enough that it challenges me to reexamine myself and what type of relationship I would accept.

Or at least it would but he’s already done me the favor (and it is a favor really) of being honest with me and explaining that he isn’t available for a relationship right now. He has some personal, life-type things to focus on at the moment, and I get that.

Completely, totally, 100% get it.

And I am not nearly so selfish (no matter what y’all say) that I would want him to sacrifice his life goals in order to date me. I mean, geesh. I’m not THAT shallow, crushingly lonely and desperate. (Almost, but….)

But I will say the Universe can suck a big bag of dicks for this.

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About cb

Nickname: Munt Measurements: 45 B, 34, 38(?) Ambition: to be the best human ever! Turn ons: long walks on the beach, romantic dinners, porn, rainbows, cock Turn offs: bad smell face, men who are full of themselves, dead puppies, popcorn, sadness
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10 Responses to The Universe Giveth…

  1. shit; the universe is a cruel mistress indeed. and make that a big bag of bloated diseased dicks. 😦

  2. Chip says:

    Thanks for sharing.

  3. Shit indeed…
    While I was reading your post at first I thought of saying something like ‘there is no such things as perfection’ etc, but the situation really sucks…
    I’m sorry…

  4. Terry says:

    I’m so sorry – for both of you.

  5. bearhunterfl says:

    I can so relate to what you write about here. It does suck (and not in a good way). Its hard to not want more…..but hot sex with a hot guy is worth something, no? Was he clear with you from the start that he was unavailable for relationship?

  6. javabear says:

    I agree, it was very good of him to let you know he’s not available for a LTR. But damn. Any chance he’ll be ready soon? Time’s a wasting. Sorry, CB.

  7. Mark in DE says:

    I can’t think of any “personal, life-type things to focus on at the moment” that would stop me from seeing someone I really clicked with. His better be really, really good.

  8. JimA says:

    Sorry cb. Just live in the moment and if you see him or do him again enjoy it more fully in that moment!

  9. Howard in CT says:

    Is there a gay man on this planet who cannot say been there, done that. Been blind, been stupid – all of us- over and over again. You gave it your best, it didn’t work, and you may never know why. Hey, not your fault, Man .It hurts sure, but at this early stage it is only a flesh wound that will heal. As long as it lasted, give yourself that long to heal. Sharing your story here is a good thing. You are among friends. Big Hugs.

  10. Rick says:

    Enough of the poor poor pitiful me shit. You know you’re handsome. You have a job. You have an awesome condo. You have live in pussy. Now your getting some sweet dick too. Come on now.

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